A lot has happen since my last post for my birthday. Its a mixed bag full with sweetness and sour, sometimes bitter and sometimes it hurts me a lot. Although whatever happen, life goes on~
1) Finishing my masters study
At long last, I finish my study. This maybe mark the end of 7 years long life as university student (mahasiswa) to be exact. Who knows I will continue to pursue the PhD, only time will tell~
2)And 2 weeks later after finishing the study, I landed a job
Rezeki Allah~ I landed my first job on my first job interview. Although it may sounds that I will be happy, I know the challenges that will rise up in front of me. A mountain to climb, treacherous and dangerous cliff to jump. It seems easy at first, but once I involved, it looks like its no turning back. Maybe Im not happy with my job, maybe~ or its just my student mentality that still intact force me to quickly reform myself to become a man with a career. Its time to change and learn new things....
3) My family roots are shaking
The roots of the family seems not holding the tree firmly now. I just hope it will not crumble and makes me and all of my siblings as victim. I pray everyday that it will stabilize soon, time will tell....
4) Been away from my lovely sweetheart
This one hurt me the most. And it almost cause me to lose my insanity. Being so far away from her really takes a toll on my mental. The big slap if I feel somewhat been ignored, just for the TV show or for the mood changes. Am I too desperate? maybe. Am I being a busybody and always need an attention from her? only she knows.
Somehow I feel very awkward, and helpless. I don't know to who should I really talk too. My parents? nope. My siblings? nope. My sweetheart? I don't know. My friends? probably not the best option.
It seems a dead end to me. Feeling very helpless now. Ya Allah, berikanlah ku kekuatan utk menghadapi hari2 yang mendatang.........
Syukur kepada Allah kerana masih memberikan ku peluang untuk bernafas di muka bumi Nya, bagi mencari keredaan Nya. Alhamdulillah, genap sudah 25 tahun aku dilahirkan :)
I still remember posting the post on the blog on the same date, but 5 YEARS ago. Here is the link: http://revolutionworks.blog.friendster.com/2005/09/im-grew-older-with-experience/
Well after 5 years, did I achieve what I wish 5 years ago? Seems likely. And to top it off, I still didn't finish my study, although now at different level.
First time
For the the first time, there is person, calling me right at 12am of 13th September. Its my lovely dear, cutely wishing me happy birthday although she was far away back at her home at Perak. Nothing gonna describe my joy when she call me that morning. Thank you dear, may my next birthday can be celebrated with you as, well, you get the whole picture ;-)
Hari Raya Aidilfitri + homework/assignment/project + playing game = madness
For a whole week, I put my effort on doing the assignment/project. But something is missing. The hardcore effort that usually can make me go on and on and on to do the work has GONE. Able to pay attention for 2 hours then my head spinning, so I play games for a while.
Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all fellow muslim readers. Well, Im not celebrate it much, just celebrate it with my family, but they gone off to Johor while I been left alone at home continue the effort to complete all the assignment given.
My birthday wishes
For the 25th birthday, I wish almost the same like 5 years ago. To finish up my study. But now I want to find a good job, raise money and get married, hehehehe~ Well it seems like typical wishes that anyone wanted, but mine is a different story altogether.
Wednesday, a day in one week. So what is the big deal about Wednesday? well for me, usually in this day, a very good thing or very bad thing happen.
Lets start with the bad ones...
Bad Wednesday (in diploma days): also known as hell day
Why? well for start, the class start early at 8:00am. Been the day of the middle of the week, this day usually the day where the assignment need to be submitted, and I have class from 8:00am to 6:00pm. The only break that we had is lunch break around 12:30pm to 2:00pm.
Then we had to go for curriculum class (I hate it) not only it starts at 6:30pm, but the class will end at 8:30pm if we lucky. Not only that, the class is so far away from the hostel, and the only mean of transportation that I had for disposal is my feet. Walking to the class feeeeeel so long, and the walk back to hostel is much more loooong~ feel that's the hostel is thousand of kilometers away. And usually, at the end of the day, I go to bed early, its sooo tiring for one day...
Good Wednesday (in master days): also known as the happy (date) day :)
Only in this day, the cinema ticket show will be half priced to RM6. (Yeah you read it right, RM6 baby). And I can go there with my dear and watch and enjoy the movie. Its a date day for me. Watching movie together with her and then enjoying nice lunch which ever we want to go. Its so nice to spend the day with my dear and I feel very happy when I share my time with her. After that we go class together and after that we can have dinner if we still hungry.
Things that I have enjoyed most.....
For years I was hooked up with computer/video games. I was so obsessed with it, and I can play non stop for hours. But now, I feel something changing, rarely I sit in front of my PC or my consoles and play for hours. I still play it casually, but not as hardcore as before. For some reason, it didn't have much appeal that can make me glued to play for hours....
On the other hand, I enjoyed spent time with my dear. Every moment I spent with her, sharing thoughts and discuss anything together, see her smile and laugh, makes me feel human. Unlike computer games, this feel very different, and I feel appreciated by someone.
Thank you so much dear for spending time with me, if I had been given choice between games and you, I without hesitation choosing you, because, you are the only one in my heart~ I love you~