TIME.
Yes, TIME. It almost more than a year if I ever update my blog.
Not that I have a lot of readers also. But since the last post, everything has changed. My family, myself.
For a start, lets say I started my own family already. Im happily married to my love on 11 November 2011. And its a struggle until the end. Right now still, Im struggling. Its like you gonna drown but somehow, you manage to keep a float.
I wonder how long I can manage that.
As for my family, its already broken. It shattered to million pieces that maybe impossible to piece it back together again. Its a long story, and I planned to to write a novel on the whole story. Who knows it will become a next novel to silver screen.
I planned to keep active in my blog again. Maybe I write a few lines after my work hour while waiting for my wife to finish her work hour. Keep me on your reading list ok? :-)
Till next post then...
A lot has happen since my last post for my birthday. Its a mixed bag full with sweetness and sour, sometimes bitter and sometimes it hurts me a lot. Although whatever happen, life goes on~
1) Finishing my masters study
At long last, I finish my study. This maybe mark the end of 7 years long life as university student (mahasiswa) to be exact. Who knows I will continue to pursue the PhD, only time will tell~
2)And 2 weeks later after finishing the study, I landed a job
Rezeki Allah~ I landed my first job on my first job interview. Although it may sounds that I will be happy, I know the challenges that will rise up in front of me. A mountain to climb, treacherous and dangerous cliff to jump. It seems easy at first, but once I involved, it looks like its no turning back. Maybe Im not happy with my job, maybe~ or its just my student mentality that still intact force me to quickly reform myself to become a man with a career. Its time to change and learn new things....
3) My family roots are shaking
The roots of the family seems not holding the tree firmly now. I just hope it will not crumble and makes me and all of my siblings as victim. I pray everyday that it will stabilize soon, time will tell....
4) Been away from my lovely sweetheart
This one hurt me the most. And it almost cause me to lose my insanity. Being so far away from her really takes a toll on my mental. The big slap if I feel somewhat been ignored, just for the TV show or for the mood changes. Am I too desperate? maybe. Am I being a busybody and always need an attention from her? only she knows.
Somehow I feel very awkward, and helpless. I don't know to who should I really talk too. My parents? nope. My siblings? nope. My sweetheart? I don't know. My friends? probably not the best option.
It seems a dead end to me. Feeling very helpless now. Ya Allah, berikanlah ku kekuatan utk menghadapi hari2 yang mendatang.........
Syukur kepada Allah kerana masih memberikan ku peluang untuk bernafas di muka bumi Nya, bagi mencari keredaan Nya. Alhamdulillah, genap sudah 25 tahun aku dilahirkan :)
I still remember posting the post on the blog on the same date, but 5 YEARS ago. Here is the link: http://revolutionworks.blog.friendster.com/2005/09/im-grew-older-with-experience/
Well after 5 years, did I achieve what I wish 5 years ago? Seems likely. And to top it off, I still didn't finish my study, although now at different level.
First time
For the the first time, there is person, calling me right at 12am of 13th September. Its my lovely dear, cutely wishing me happy birthday although she was far away back at her home at Perak. Nothing gonna describe my joy when she call me that morning. Thank you dear, may my next birthday can be celebrated with you as, well, you get the whole picture ;-)
Hari Raya Aidilfitri + homework/assignment/project + playing game = madness
For a whole week, I put my effort on doing the assignment/project. But something is missing. The hardcore effort that usually can make me go on and on and on to do the work has GONE. Able to pay attention for 2 hours then my head spinning, so I play games for a while.
Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all fellow muslim readers. Well, Im not celebrate it much, just celebrate it with my family, but they gone off to Johor while I been left alone at home continue the effort to complete all the assignment given.
My birthday wishes
For the 25th birthday, I wish almost the same like 5 years ago. To finish up my study. But now I want to find a good job, raise money and get married, hehehehe~ Well it seems like typical wishes that anyone wanted, but mine is a different story altogether.